Now, I'm just angry. I don't cry anymore. I'm just extremely irritable. The slightest thing can set me off. Who would have thought that experiencing a racially traumatic event when I was nine years old would have this affect all these years later? My therapist warned that I was going to uncover a lot. When we chatted last week, she saw that the film was providing healing and she encouraged me to keep going. Now, I'm a bit worried. After that police officer pulled me over, and

Now, there's no shooting until May 26th. But I've got everything else to organize with becoming a non-profit and then applying for grants before May 15th. It'll be a marathon race. On top of that, music for the film is already coming through. Thomas Bellier is already composing tracks for the film. He's trying to get everything mostly done before he leaves back for Paris on June 15th. That means I've got to come up with money for him to do the recordings, getting studio time,

I didn't know what was going to happen at the salon. I had been there a month ago and gotten a haircut from Samantha. She was very kind and mature. "I don't care about money," she told me. "I just want to do something I love. That's why I chose cutting hair. I like connecting with people." "What helped you realize that?" I asked. "Oh, I don't know," she said. "My parents and my church." I wanted to know more. I asked her if we could film us getting a haircut and then talk abo

Today was an emotional day, but it started out really unemotional. First, I got a tattoo of "Sometimes I Dream in Farsi" inside a heart I drew. That might sound funny. Let me start again. Voodoo from Voodoo Monkey Tattoo in Rochester gave me a tattoo of a drawing I did of the film's title in a heart. Such a cool guy and place. I talked about what the film was about -- a doc on me and my films, but also my family coming to America, and then me dealing with racism as a nine yea

Today was the first day of shooting, and I already cried like a baby. My therapist warned me that I'd have issues. She wanted to do this Gestalt Therapy during our sessions, but I told her I'd save it for the camera. When I told Aaron that, he bagged up laughing. I guess everything for art. Like Nemanja says: "I would die for art." In the morning, we did an interview with Panauh. Aaron was surprised with how open he was and even critical of me. "That's healthy," Aaron said. "